Becoming Bold

Do you ever wonder what it would take to change? I've been wondering this a lot lately. In my last post I talked about being myself. That's not so difficult. It requires a lot less effort to be my dorky self than it does to try and be cool all of the time. But no, this time I'm talking about an actual change. Changing a part of my personality that I'm not so thrilled with. What character trait could this be you ask? I tend to be timid. Now some of you just laughed out loud. Of course if you're one of my good friends, you don't see my timid side. (Or if you met me at school, since it's easier to change when no one knows you). But here at home, being bold with the people I've grown up with is kind of a problem.

When I was in elementary school I was far more bold. Even in Junior High it was fairly easy for me to stand out. But over the past few years I've been far more content to fade into the background. I'm not really willing to reach out and grab the things that I want. I'm self conscious and nervous about how I appear to others. This is what I want to change. I want to be comfortable with myself and more adventurous. I want to be willing to take a risk in order to get the things that I want. So this is what I'm going to work on right now. I'm changing myself and not allowing myself to be a recluse. I will never get anywhere that way! So everyone wish me luck and you can stop snickering at me. I have recently learned that people see me as a confident person that is not really shy or afraid of reaching out for what I want... well that is completely false. So no laughing at my expense. I just let you all in on a little secret about me so be so grateful!

Who's That Girl? It's Claire!

Alright so I recently watched the pilot episode to the show New Girl. And can I just rant and rave about how amazing it is? It's funny and clever and the humor actually made me laugh out loud. I don't laugh out loud while watching television. But I was rolling. I even paused it a few times to get my giggles out. Now a quick disclaimer, I relate to this show more than most so that's probably why I laughed so hard.

That being said, the show is about a girl named Jess who gets dumped. So she finds an apartment on Craig's list and ends up moving in with three guys. How does this relate to me you ask? Well Jess is a dork. She is random and silly. She loves singing to herself and even has a theme song. She makes a Lord of the Rings reference that made me die laughing and she's just great. Another thing, not every gets to see my absolutely dorky side. Generally I'm great at hiding the song I'm constantly writing in my head. And I try to be serious and make people think I'm normal. But let's be honest... the girl who sits in the back of class and sings a song about drawing Noah's Arc, without realizing she's doing it, is definetly classified as a dork. And I've decided to quit hiding my dorkiness. Because I personally feel as if it's fantastic. And it's slowly creeping out in the open anyway so I may as well just let my freak flag fly!

Just watch it. Trust me you will love it!!! And if not I don't want to hear about it? Mmmk? Thanks!